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Artist // Hobbyist // Varied
- Sweden
- Deviant for 9 years
- He / Him
Favourite Movies
Fantasy stuff. Hayao Miyazaki's stuff is a good example.
Favourite TV Shows
Anime...
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
... Chvrches, Daughter, Regina Spektor, Adele, Jontron, and many of others.
Favourite Writers
That's a hard one :/
Favourite Games
Monster Hunter series, shadow of the colossus, the zelda series, the pokemon series, the super smash games, darksouls I, odin sphere, FE: awakening, bravely default, katamari damacy, don't starve, journey, undertale and ni no kuni (unspecified order)
Favourite Gaming Platform
3ds/computer
Tools of the Trade
creativity and oddity
Other Interests
spending time with friends and wasting away
Depressing Hope?
3 min read
I want to change. And I want to live. I've been working on one aspect of me for 8 years now. And I feel ready to face rest of me, and the world, again. I want to make art again. Unfortunately I'm still sick. I'm in the middle of phasing out one of my medicines. And it is hard as hell. And then it's back to my old medicine that makes me sleep 14h a night. But at least I have a chance that way. I really hope that things become better. I have to start working towards having a better life, wether or not I deserve it. But then what? I have no education. And it looks like it will be very hard for me to get one. And I have no dreams or hopes for the future when it comes to having a profession. I want to stay with my partner until our lives run out. And treat her well. I guess this is my only dream. It's not easy. I'm a sick person, and so is she. She has CF and only a couple of decades left to live, under the best circumstances. That's a very long time. But it also isn't long at all. I
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So... My last treatment with electroconvulsive therapy didn't get the desired results. And I am afraid that I will never get better. With this in mind, I might continue to not produce any art... I've decided to get a Mangrove seed with what money I have left over after bills, food and medicine. And I think that I've settled on Red Mangrove. I plan to keep it in a glass container so that the cool stilt roots are visible. There is a little crab that only wants a small space and eats Red Mangrove litter, and when I can afford it it would be cool to keep one of them with the tree. The Mangrove is a sanctuary for small animals. And maybe it could also be a little sanctuary for me? I hope that I will post some pictures of that in the future. My flatmate has said that they'd be happy to help me look after it when I am not feeling well enough, she thinks that it sounds cool, so it should be able to live.
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Depression and art block?
0 min read
Do you ever wish that your life had a purpose?
I don't mean a mission from god, or a reason that you were born.
But merely a reason for you to go on.
For the longest of times have I not been making art, even though I've been trying to. I sit in front of my computer and wish that I were drawing, I bring out my oil and my aquarelle but even if I manage to start, I never manage to finish.
As a form of escapism I continuously search for something that I want, things I want to do, see or experience.
Pretending that life is supposed to be happy and beautiful. Or pretending to have something "deeper" to express. Just faking feelings to put into
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Thanks for your support.
Thanks for the fave 
many thanks for the fave ad 
Thanks for the 
Thanks a lot for adding my work to your collection.
np ^^
Thank you for the favorite! 