it used to be a way to love another
then it became a way to live with loss
later on it became a feeling others gave me
and a means of self defense
it turned into a way I viewed myself
the way I viewed my future
now I just hide myself behind it
wishing that I could keep myself away from this feeling
while hoping that I would never stop feeling it
There is no way to express feelings.
No matter what, what comes out is always lacking and empty.
But that doesn't mean that this expression does not reflect me.
Because I am empty.
I pray myself into submission.
Wishing that something about me could have a little more depth.
I wish that I could cry, because then at least I could say that, "I'm sad", about myself.
But I can't. And the reason that I can't is painstakingly clear. Crying is pointless, equally as pointless as I.
There is no truth to find, no right or wrong, there is only me. And I wish, that I was someone else.
Everything is built upon imagination, and sadly I feel awful.
Bef